guilloche-I'm sorry that happened to you. Yes, he knows my medical expenses have gotten unaffordable. He has no alternatives, just to come back when I can afford it. I asked him to come less frequently and he said no. I can't imagine seeing anyone else.

growlycat-thank you for this. I wish it were true in my case. I imagine he is relieved to be rid of me because I am not an easy client since I wasn't getting better.

It feels traumatizing to me. My parents neglected me unless I had something to offer them, met their needs. It feels the same way. I know he is not purposely doing anything to hurt me, but I feel so much shame and self-hate.

Ideally I would see someone else but I can't. I am really attached to him and cannot resolve this with another therapist.