Explain to me why my 10 year old autistic son can get out of bed, get himself dressed for school feed himself breakfast, get his bike and ride a Mile to school all without requesting any help. But you can't?
He has no friends, no peers that understand him. Even as his family we struggle to understand often, as he sees things very differently from us.
Yet he does it, every week day without fail.
On the weekends he plays with his dog and does his own laundry.
He is 10.....10!! And Autistic!

Crawl out from under the bridge, and join the military. If you need your life organised for you.

Also no one will befriend or socialise with someone who just takes and takes. At some point you need to give something back or you are going to be very very alone.