I'm 25 years old. I just recently found out that I'm half Chinese.
I found out that my mother (English) cheated on her husband (at the time) and my biological dad (Chinese) cheated on his wife over a one night stand and here I am.
Since I found out my family came clean to me and even my step dads side who abused me when I was a kid agreed that I am half Chinese.
But my mother still thinks that my step dad is my real dad but I know that's not true.
My mother does suffer from alcohol addiction and schizophrenia (because it runs in the family) I'm not to sure if the lying is from her mental health state or she just likes to lies all the time.
I have to admit she never really was a good mother in the first place. She mentally abused me through out my life; loving my sister more and hated me, blamed me for my birth and her life. Like I ruined everything.
Since I found out that I am half Chinese and stopped taking to her completely. she suddenly stopped treating me badly and started being really loving.
It's weird. To me it's fake. Like, why now?
But I'm not sure if it's out of guilt the way she treated me. She never said sorry but started to say "I love you" but I don't love her.
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