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Old Dec 27, 2007, 06:16 PM
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Today I am finding that my mind is on a hamster wheel going around-n-around. Actually its more like 3-4 wheels, I keep jumping from one to the other. Over this break, I've been thinking a lot about therapy. Therapy has definitely help me to move out of a depressed state of mind, but I'm wondering should I end it? Do I need it. Do I want it? Is it really helping me or just making me over think and question everything to the point my head hurts?

Today I'm trying to answer the question--When do you say, I've gotten all I can from therapy and its time to stop?

I can see where its helped me but I'm feeling like I'm at a dead end.
1. My marriage sucks. Fortunately/Unfortunately therapy has helped me figure out that I can't fix it no matter how hard I try unless my husband wants to change.

2. The verbal attacks affect me more than I realized. Therapy is not going to stop them, only I can stand up for myself and protect my kids.

3. My inability to feel passion empathy for my husband has more to do with the current situation and lack of emotional awareness than my inability feel these emotions. Although therapy has help me be more aware of my emotions, it really can't help the situation with my husband.

4. My childhood was abusive and I've been well trained to not trust, not feel, and not speak. Therapy has only succeeded in making me feel guilty and remorseful when I push people away. Unfortunately I still push people away so, I don't really see the positive side of discovering these feelings.

5. Therapy has awakened cravings for deeper more intimate relationship with others. Which would be OK if I was surrounded by healthy compassionate people. Unfortunately, I really don't have people to safely relate this way to. My new yearnings are going unfulfilled which is actually making me feel more unhappy not less. Now I'm feeling needy and fearful that I may develop an unhealthy attachment to therapy or my therapist. Don't really see the positive side of discovering these feelings.

I may be just in a pessimistic mood today but I really questioning the efficacy of future therapy today.

How do you decide if its appropriate to continue in therapy or if you've reached a point of diminished return?
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