Today's session wasn't as intense as they have been recently, which is nice. I have a tendency to disconnect from my emotions when I'm ill, which probably aided in that, because we talked about some pretty deep stuff.

Started with how this year at work is going to be miserable. He said my schedule did sound difficult.

Then I was like, "but what I really want to talk about is the conversation I had last night with H."

So the session was incredibly awkward, and even RoboT acknowledged that he was mildly uncomfortable (because of how uncomfortable I was). He said at one point that I might benefit from practicing yoga, as it's helpful for people who have been abused to feel more connected to their body.

At one point I was talking about how the relationship between H and I has improved recently. And I realized that it's improving because of changes that I'm making.

This part of the conversation stood out to me because RoboT looked genuinely happy for me. It was nice.

Most of the session felt like I was talking about sex with my dad. I even said "eww" at a few points, which made him laugh.

He said I did a good job in session twice. Maybe because I allowed myself to sit in the discomfort.