So sorry to hear this, I have a hard time with holidays since I lost my dad, it takes time for this to hurt less, I mean it isn't like you stop missing those we love that have passed away, but in time something happens I think it is acceptance sinks in our heads and the mind processes (sp?) and helps us get by or through our days of sadness.
I wish I could offer some comfort, the best I can do right now is to let you know we are here for you, so feel free to hang around and talk. . . we all care

((((((((((((( for you ))))))))))

Sincerely,

DE