Thanks both of you. I'm having a terrible evening with it tonight and have had to try and stop myself crying over something that happened a few weeks ago. I am convinced now I've got hepatitis and am beside myself.

Can't stop googling and stuff like that. Usually Google provides some relief but for this there has been people saying a hepatitis test is warrented. So I've scared myself silly. I feel terrible and not sure what to do. I'm so scared that I'll contract something awful and my partner will Not want to be with me anymore.

My parents think I'm ridiculous. Especially my dad. I just can't handle the anxiety really need some help.

I have had cbt and erp before and it worked really well. I am hoping that I manage to get some more soon. I was on citalopram which was quite good but ironically I then worry about the health side effects of taking that, especially due to the birth control I'm taking as well. I don't know if the birth control I'm taking is making the anxiety worse to be honest.

It's like I know what I have to do but can't bring myself to do it. I feel so anxious. I don't think the ocd has been this bad for ages!