I have DID, along with mixed personality disorder. It took 4 years of therapy for me to tell pdoc what was really going on. Up to that point, I was being treated for anxiety, treatment resistant depression, SI.
I was told that it takes an average of 7 years of therapy from time of diagnosis for people with DID. It's been six years since I was diagnosed, so I figure probably a couple more years.
I have improved-but there were long stretches where I didn't see/feel improvement. I am no longer depressed. I'm starting to reach out to people, to take (emotional) risks. I am off most of the meds that I was taking to control SI.
I have switched therapists-but not by choice. But actually the switch has been a good one. I think with DID, you can expect ups and downs in terms of improvement, at least that has been the case for me. I think switching ts to someone who does body/brain stuff (EMDR, SE, Brain spotting) makes sense if regular talk therapy isn't working.
For me, stopping therapy probably means suicide. I don't have that safely under control yet. I have control of it for longer and longer periods, but it can still come rushing back in. I also have some glimpses now of what life could be like if I were better integrated. For years, the point of my therapy was so that I would not hurt my family by committing suicide, even though I wasn't actually improving.
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