The only thing that has kept me going is the thought that my rather unconventional experiences in life will guide me to achieve things that most wouldn't.

Back before my mother passed away, I was so mentally unstable due to all of the stress at home that I spent countless hours locked away in isolation inside of my room. When my mother's health started declining, right before she passed away, it was painful trying to deal with her when she was awake because she would expect me to drop what I'm doing and attend to her every little need. When she was asleep, I would spend a lot of time studying alternative ways to make money online, such as e-commerce, internet marketing, and a couple of other topics to try to support myself since I couldn't find nor hold down a job due to how overwhelming everything was for me at the time.

While doing all of that research, I discovered that there are people who succeed in it and make very good money while being able to actually have a life and do what they enjoy or travel the world. After reading about all of these successful people, I became interested in doing something similar.

So now, I figure that if I can get to a point where I can succeed doing something like that, all of the years I spent in isolation and loneliness and all of the pain that I endured would be worth something. I figure that if I was unfairly denied a happy childhood as a child than I will live my childhood as an adult and those who try to tell me I can't can screw off. I've been fighting for such a life so that I can be happy for once.

I figure that if I am making more money and I have a higher quality of life when or before I hit my 30s, I will have a much better life than most of the "normal" people who had happy lives full of family, friends, and fun in their teens and early 20s do in their 30s or 40s.

This way of thinking keeps me going most of the time, however, sometimes, it isn't enough.