Daisy Dead Petals-Thank you. I can't help but think it's a reflection of my unworthiness or his wanting to get rid of me rather than him. Like growing up, I didn't deserve to be parented ( I mean that literally). His actions cut to the bone, hurt me so deeply, reactivated core issues. I am obviously very wounded.

Sometimes I wonder if it's sadistic or to punish me, but I can't think of why he would do that. But these thoughts keep popping up in my conscious, but outside of the emotional reaction.