I wish I could go back to when I was younger, too. During the teen years I only had one great girlfriend and that was it. And as it turned out, she's the only one I ever loved, even up to today. I felt like I had Attention Deficit in my child and teen years; so I've felt like I could have done better with academics and sports.

When I got into my 50s that's when health issues started. Before that, I was in practically perfect health. The skin cancers started. Then other things such as infections, bronchitis a couple of times, and prostate cancer. I feel fine now, but not quite the same as before.

And now in my life it's very hard to make friends and keep them. I feel like there's nothing much to look forward to in the future. I feel like what's ahead is loses of people, health, and possibly money.