I can't
Yes you can!!! I am 55 an have been disabled since I was 14, my mother and Family members didn't understand. I know how difficult the road is and just how painful. But, you're dealing with too much without the extra baggage of your unsimpathetic relatives.
Apply for food stamps and any other government assistance that you can, while you're having a burst of energy if you know what i mean. If you need help or don't understand please contact me. Please contact me either way! You can and will find a way to escape the toxic environment that you are surrounded by. It will make your condition mentally as well as physically fester and cause you to become more depressed and despondent.
Look for furnished room to rent and cut off all contact with the toxic relationships that you now have in your like!.
I'm sorry that I am so callous and to the point , but there are so many families that are not blood relationships! People that will love you, care for you and accept you for who you really are! You just need to reach out a little we are here!
When I was in my late teens until my late thirties I felt exactly like you, but am now free! I don't need anyone to help me, reassure me, or approve of me! I am in a very happy and am the most satisfied with my (unhealthy and constantly sick disabled) person with an unlimited amount of love to give and friends who understand and reciprocate. Sorry for babbling, but life is too short...
TAKE THAT, YOU CAN'T INTO I CAN AND WATCH ME! EVERY TIME YOUR FEELING LIKE GIVING UP. CLOSE YOUR EYE AND HEAR ALL OF THEM TELLING YOU THAT YOU'LL FAIL, IT WOLL GIVE YOU THAT EXTRA BOOST TO CONTINUE ON YOUR JOURNEY TO YOUR NEW LIFE! IT'S WORTH IT!