Hi everyone, so... 4 years ago I had a psychotic episode. Then two years later had another one, as I mistook my medication.

Now, the strange thing is that during the day, and specially with the help of some low dose caffeine, I feel really well, no symptoms at all.
Then as the day progresses, around sunset, I begin to be very ill.

My predominant symptom is generalized malaise, and something strange is that my thought patterns become very unstable.

For example; I go from thinking "Im in love with this girl, and I am going to travel back home and marry her", to "Oh no, what I really want is to devote myself to martial arts in a mountain", one minute later, to "Oh, I want to move to X country right now and start my life there", to "I love my self", to "My mind is broken", to "AAAAAHGGGG!"

Can't stand it. ITs like my mind goes from one thing/statement to the other, I cant find any stability or place where i can psychologically stay for more than one minute. Is this normal?

Anyone else experiencing this?
What is it? Is there a name for it?? Im confused.