I don't know why it happened (well, I have an idea)...But tonight at rehearsal, I basically stopped functioning. My brain kind of turned off, I couldn't pay attention to what was going on, couldn't remember things I know really well (music, choreography)...

Ever since then, I feel like I'm losing function. Like if I stop doing stuff, I won't be able to do anything.

...I feel like crying, but I can't. I physically can't - no tears will come. I feel like sleeping, but I'm not even tired. I just want to curl up in a ball, hide underneath the blankets and never come out.