Okay I couldn't dream up a very fitting title for this thread. I was going for something with "erotic transference" but couldn't make it work.

I know I've read a number of posts from people who want to have sex with their therapists. I always felt like a bit of an outsider because I don't fantasize about T in that way. And now I've gone and made it worse. I actually told T that I didn't fantasize about having sex with him (this as part of a long discussion where I was using sex as an analogy for intimacy). I felt so awful after telling him that, felt like I'd rejected him. We talked about that some today, but I still feel terrible. My fear is that I'm now on the outside, that he'll be closer to the ones who have stronger desires/want for him. I guess there was more I should have added -- I don't fantasize about T sexually, but my relationship with him is so fascinating and interesting to me that I don't even fret the lack of a romantic relationship in my life right now. I complain about not having sex, but I don't even really care all that much. My relationship with T is fascinating and helpful and keeps me from feeling lonely.

I still feel like I alienated myself with that rejection though.

Sidony