Heidu, I can totally relate to what you are saying. I have had that problem for a long time with my friends. I live and work in the suburbs, and most of them either live or work in the city, so they always make plans and just forget to ask if I want to come, or they decide to do things at the last minute, when it's too late for me to make it down there. I used to feel so hurt by this, and to be honest, sometimes I still am hurt when I find out they did something without even calling me. But I keep reminding myself that it is not because they don't like me, but it is because they just get caught up in things, and forget. One possibility is that these friends are fairly new, and it takes awhile to get on the mental list they think of. The other possibility is, people can just be thoughtless...as I watch my friends, I notice that I am not the only one they forget about at times...they're very nice people, but they just aren't always putting themselves in other people's shoes, the way I tend to do (in fact, they even talk about me as the one who never forgets anyone...I always make sure everyone is included).

I know it's annoying to always be the one initiating things, but that may be what you have to do for awhile. And heck, even if it might be better to have someone else doing the inviting, at least you won't be alone, right?

I hope you find something to lift your spirits.

*hugs*
mj