Disclaimer: this thread is meant to be a vent/rant thread more than anything else. I welcome support in it but please, don't get mad at me if you try to give me advice and I seem to not care because that isn't the case.

With that being said, I am utterly fed up with the buses. It isn't my fault that my mother was useless and didn't help me learn the life skills that I need to function in society as an adult. it isn't my fault that I never had a chance to learn how to drive because my mother wouldn't allow me to take driver's ed when I was a teen. I've been fighting and struggling to learn how to function as an adult on my own because I had nobody to teach me. It has taken me this long to be able to find a job and start college. I still have trouble managing money and taking care of my basic needs even though I'm getting better. So why must transportation be harder for me than almost everything else?

I am so freaking sick and tired of going to college for 12 credit hours a week, going to work for 20 hours a week, and donating plasma 2x a week; all while factoring an extra 3-4 hours into my already busy day all because of the buses!! I am so fed up with having to wake up at 6AM JUST to get to work when my shift doesn't start until 9AM or having to spend all day between transportation and school just to attend 2 freaking classes! It isn't uncommon for me to not get home until 11PM because of how slow the buses are. 15-16 freaking hours just to take 1-2 classes, work a shift at a job that pays a measly $8.40 per hour, and donate plasma for $25-55 is getting irritating. It doesn't help me that I am losing out on both my social life and seeing a decent therapist because I can't get anywhere. I had to take off work tomorrow just to get to the mental health center to sign a treatment plan to keep seeing my new case manager all because of their stupid confidentiality B.S. If it wasn't for the housing grant that I am on for 2 more months, I would give up on going entirely because of the buses.

I am so freaking overwhelmed and stressed. I can't take another 6 months of this. I need to learn how to drive and start up driver's ed but it is almost $400 to do that and I would have to spend 4-6 months learning before I can finally get my license. I can't wait that long! I feel like if things keep going the way they are I am going to beat the **** out of one of these bus drivers because the whole bus system is pissing me off to the extreme. I am so freaking angry and agitated when dealing with these buses that I have to keep my headset on and block out people because if somebody says one wrong thing to me, I am going to beat their heads in with my backpack. IDGAF about the consequences anymore because this world isn't for me if I can't even handle working and going to school.

**** these buses and **** society. I am fed up!!!!!