A thought I came up with in discussion at a SMART Recovery meeting tonight:

The greatest risk to my sobriety is the ease with which I can maintain it.

My pattern has been that I decide to stop drinking and stick to it. Then as little as 4 and as many as 18 moths later, I decide I can drink again because I am having so little trouble keeping it under control. But abstinence isn't a line in the sand that can move; it's where the sand ends. Once I move that line back into the sand, it gets too easy to move the line when I step over it. Not drinking and controlling drinking are two completely different things.