Hi Guys.Here I go with my rant.Pain for 40yrs due to work related injury & BP for along time.My moods shift like crazy & I'm sure its not the BP-well not that often.Narcotics stopped working so no OTC is gonna help.Pain rubs-a lost cause.I have no one to talk to but my wife & I try not to upset her but she can tell by my moods,the way I walk,& going to bed very early to ease the pain & also to forget that I'm alive.Pretty much my only friend & neighbor doesn't want to hear it as she has pain herself.So,when I'm asked how are you?A fake smile with an OK.Really-that's just a greeting.She's a little mad that I don't see her mans band play.I developed a hear issue from my 14 yrs as a musician called hyperacusis which makes even the slightest noise too loud to handle such as music,cars,airplanes,etc.
We can't afford to pay for surgery as my wife has a lot of medical bills racked up for herself.Refused my Drs offer to go back on narcotic meds.I love being able to think clear again.This depression started in March & isn't lifting good enough for me.I'm at my witts end.Thank's for reading & putting up with my rant.I know getting this out will make me feel somewhat better.Hope everyone is OK