The stepmonster who abused me has been frequenting my dreams and I don't appreciate it. Even through not all are her being mean-it still disrupts my peace. I can't control my dreams so I guess I have to deal with them. Bleh.

Just wanted to whine a minute.

Bad memories keep coming back too. There were two times during the years I wanted to call for help. Maybe my life would be different if I had told someone or called police. Maybe part of my suffering is my own damn fault.