Hi, Sounds like you are going through alot. You spoke of the kid's being a 'bad influence' and such.
All through life one will run into those who are seen to be 'bad influences' and I should know I have had my share and used that line. Only the bottom line in this and those who are negative to your wellbeing is the one thing I had to learn. I do not at times feel I have much control over my life only I do have Control over my CHOICES in which I make. If I know someone is a 'bad influance on me I can CHOOSE to continue to have this person in my life or personal space only knowing straight up the consequences of my Choice. Positive or Negative.
I had a T who had a poster in their office. The poster had a picture of a fork in the road with signs pointing down two seperate paths, one sign said something positive (do not remember) only the most important sign was the one pointing the other way that said 'NOT AN OPTION' I myself have to tell myself that there are many thoughts which come to mind and say no, this is not an option for me at this time in my life.
Best wishes
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