Hi there, I'm new to the forum type thing but I figured it's the place where most people may be able to relate.

I was just wondering if anyone finds themselves sabotaging their friendships/relationships in general?

It's almost like the people who help me/support me/love me the most get the most abuse in my head. Sometimes i can keep it in my head and I silently brew in my anger with them for no reason and sometimes I say and do stuff that I know will push them further away. I question their motives all the time (more so than the people who blatantly don't care). It's terrible and if I keep going as I am. there's gonna be no one left.

Any ideas on how to combat this?