<font color="blue">Grey, regardless of the religious principles being felt, the fact that your behavior is upsetting you means it needs to be addressed. Feeling bad about yourself, or your activities, is a tough path. Since you don't have a T, you're trying to work through this on your own, and that's tougher.

We can't get into who believes what on this site. We can only say how God or our beliefs affect us. For someone (like you) having doubts about your faith and your actions, it would only add to your frustration to hear differing religious points of view.

You must go from what you were taught, to what God will allow for you, in your life. It's ok to be celebate, and might be a good place for you right now. If your girlfriend is a true friend, she will understand. Backing off from something causing turmoil, to reevaluate it from time to time, is a good thing.

Yes, the human body is made that way, once you start having sexual relations, it craves more. What you are experiencing in that realm is nothing new. And your Bible also speaks to that: self discipline. You need to decide if your upset for this is coming from outside yourself, or inside. If outside, do you respect those people's opinions on other topics? And if inside, from your upbringing, or from God. And then, reason out what is right for you, for right now.

I don't think you're a bad person for having these feelings. In fact, I think it's good that you are re evaluating what you are doing. We all have to do that, especially for something that is causing turmoil in our lives.