Good point. He was unable to control his countertransference. Yes, you are right, he was unbalanced but I didn't see him as being needy, as if he had cut that part of himself off and me bringing up my neediness pushed his buttons big time. He has a good reputation as an excellent therapist with other people. I suppose that may be true as long as he didn't have to deal with someone who pushed his buttons like me. When someone is rejecting you, and that is your issue, my behavior went to where I wasn't even me. But then, after it all happens, I felt guilty and hated myself even more. I can't imagine any board would take my side against Mr. Perfect. And this is part of the mind **** to me. He kept saying, you haven't made any improvement, his consultant kept saying, you haven't made any improvement. The truth was, I was MUCH WORSE. The consultant said I hadn't made any progress. Nobody concluded that I was worse. Nobody then, anyway. I'm moving on but I'll never be able to erase that. I would like to never remember it. I still would like to do something about it in a positive way, but I have no clue as to what to do.