Hugs to all.
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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
I usually refer to mixed states as the mania "turning" on me. I will be sailing along in euphoric mania and then the next day I will wake up anxious, irritable as all hell, angry, and with depressed thoughts. But with all the energy of the mania, except now it's bad energy. This is when I'll start pacing and crying, lashing out at my family. It's no good. This is when I usually go IP, because I get very suicidal and impulsive, not a good combo.
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Sorry that you've struggled with this.....that is my usual pattern too. Mania almost always turns into mixed mania for me, and everything takes a horrible turn quickly. It is very scary, and I get delusional.
This time around seems different for some reason. I think it's more of a rapid cycling thing, the more I think of it. It's getting so hard to keep up with, and I'm getting really bad thoughts.....I don't want to trigger anyone though. Thoughts keep coming to me where I am suspicious of different things, and I try to give myself reassurance, but bad, racing thoughts take over, where I am not in control. I don't know what triggered this.