Hi Darkness, I am sorry I didn't see this earlier. I think something screwed up with the connection in some weird way when we had a storm blow thru here last night. I am finding all sorts of posts that it never showed from earlier than ones I responded to already being listed as "new".

Anyway, I think (at least I hope) you already know that you mean a lot to me. I know you don't truly want to hold down that path you keep talking about. I also know it's probably the one you learned because of the childhood you had. Most likely you felt you would be alone forever and need to support yourself by whatever means possible. Now though, you are starting to see that doesn't necessarily have to be true. You get scared and frustrated though when things hit a glitch or roadblock. Especially if nobody is there to help you with it quick enough. That's understandable. This is all new territory.

*hugs*

What triggered you?