So two weeks ago I was feeling great. New meds were helping. And then the dose increased. Needless to say it didn't agree with me and all of the anxiety and depression came back witha vengance. So I decreased the dosage and I'm no better. As I write this I'm so anxious and depressed at the same time. I feel like I'm going to vomit any minute. My brain is going at a high rate but the body is not responding. Computer caught a virus so I haven't been able to be here until today. This just has to stop one way or another I just can't take it anymore. all I want to do is sleep and I can't. I wake in the night at least six or seven times. My thoughts are so vile that I feel like I'm going through a reality slip of some kind. There's a woman I work with who has the "perfect" life and I get so sick of hearing about her perfect children, husband, house, car. Yesterday I came so close to teling her that I wish for something reall y bad to happen to her. It was just boiling up and I came so close to going right over the edge. I'm to the point that I don't give a crap who's feelings I hurt or who I might offend next. And then maybe an hour from now I might be so warm and fuzzy that I'll want to give the whole damn world a hug. This hurts so much.