I've hesitated weighing in here because in the past (and I can't remember the specific post), I tried to be supportive and you bit my head off. I'm hearing a lot of pain coming through in your messages and wish I could give you a big hug. I don't think deep down you really want to be a con man and I think you have a conscience and are a nice person. I hope you'll stay on PC. People care. I care. If you notice almost all your previous posts have hugs from me. I mean them. I wish you well and hope you come to a decision that brings you peace and healing. Sending big hugs.