it's funny, sunrise quoted exactly the same sentence i was going to...

" Is simply being unhappy and wanting to explore who I am reason enough to seek therapy and bill my medical insurance? "

for one thing, when is being unhappy simple? i don't know why you began therapy but i started due to crisis and decided i wanted to keep going after this passes because i want to stop being unhappy. i want my life to be fulfilling. i dont have healthy people around me but i can learn to be happy despite that and when i meet healthier people i'll be able to interact as a healthy person as well and not one of the unhealthy ones they need to avoid.

isn't happiness what we seek all our lives?

have you asked yourself if you are actually afraid of happiness? it sounds silly, but consider it. i firmly believe more people are afraid of success than failure. example: what if you do alllll this work, struggle ssooooo hard, and find out you are as empty as you believe you are, or the failure, or whatever thing you believe? Do you see what i mean? Sometimes it's easier to not try so we can hold onto that belief that we could have succeeded, than to try and take the chance or failing anyway.

i am in no way suggesting your decision should be to continue or not. Just throwing things out there.

your husband's reaction seem pretty coincidental. Is it really the case that his words emphasized your own doubts? Or were those doubts there because you knew he would feel that way? Are they more his doubts or your own? Have his feelings crept into your mind than you'd like? i ask partially just to just throw out a question, but partially because when i started i just couldn't get at certain things because i was so enmeshed in my H's way of thinking.

i understand the fear and functionality part... i was asking myself the same question not long ago... i knew i had reached a point that i could not just easily walk away if i continued. Therapy has peaks and plateaus like that... you are at a point at which to move forward requires more trust, more openness, more risk, it would be another uphill climb. It would become hard again.

you know that no one can tell you what you should do... if you stop i think you are at a break point moreso than an endpoint... because you are going back and forth. i really do believe that when you are ready to just stop you feel more certain.