Dear Split,

I have been following your blog and on here for awhile. I used to be very active on WFS but haven't been there in awhile. It's an incredible place.

Please don't beat yourself up over drinking but you MUST give it all you've got to stop. Alcohol knows you've taken time off but it kicks in just as strongly no matter how long you've been sober. That is the evil of it. The last time I drank I got another DUI which really affected my life. I deserved it and deserve the consequences but boy does it suck. I also felt like I was going to die for the first time. I could tell I was killing myself. The thought of it being worse helps keep me sober.

I havent had a drink in 2 1/2 years and I still take Antabuse. It's a no-brainer for me because I don't want to die and I don't want to kill anyone if I decide to drive again. I don't want to go to jail (again). It's my "lock" keeping alcohol away. Why mess with it when it's a sure bet for me. That being said it has no side-effects for me. I might look at your reasoning for not getting back on it. Write those things down and be honest with yourself.

You CAN do this. Don't give up on yourself and your sober life. Do you have someone you trust who can be there for you? Stay on here and WFS. I did online AA meetings even though AA isn't really my thing.

I'm honestly thinking about you. You have the strength to beat this and continue your life. This can be a blip ok? Just think, you are at a point where you still have choices.

Take Care!!!