i don't want to have sex with my T.. i have strong feelings, but those strong feelings aren't sexual. i don't think they HAVE to be. My T said something to me that i have found very helpful when i have doubts and fears concerning him... he said to ask myself about what i know and feel about him.. would he really do X? why would he do X? How likely is it, from what i know, that he would feel X or Y? What past events support or reject those ideas?

So... based on what you think your T is like, how likely is it that he truly feels rejected? How likely is it that he will value you more or less based on your sexualizing him? Do you believe he values one client more than others?

i think sunrise is so right... your strong reaction means there is a LOT there to explore. Strong reactions always indicate a good direction to go in.

BTW... GOOD FOR YOU for having the courage and trust to tell your T that in the first place! Be proud of your courage! (and think about that trust that allowed you to say it when you think about how your T might really feel)