Tisha,

I was thinking about you as I walked and shopped today. I am sorry no one was there in your time of need but it would be a shame to lose you.

When I first came to PC in June 2016--it was because I hoped I could convince people not to kill themselves. But after a couple of months of reading posts, I started to admire your humor, unique POV and how brave you are about sometimes taking a contrary POV. You are very compassionate as well.

Someday one of your boys may have a child. You are going to be an awesome grandmother. My maternal grandmother meant so much to me and I think I recall that one of your grandmothers was awesome too. Grandmothers and grandfathers play such an important role in helping children feel loved.

Your H probably loves you too but perhaps you are really sensitive to when he is not feeling especially loving toward you? After decades of marriage, who can love their partner 24/7? I am sure, when you are not being especially hard on yourself, that you will make the right decision about whether or not to divorce him.

Please keep searching for help. You are a stand out leader to me. I only began opening up on PC because I decided to emulate your openness about your mental issues. You matter.