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Originally Posted by Gabyunbound
A couple of days ago I found myself sleeping 13 hours over night and then sleeping the entire day on the couch. I couldn't help myself. I began to think that maybe I was coming down with a virus, though with no other symptoms, I couldn't be sure. Then I worked yesterday and left early because I wasn't feeling 'quite right.' I couldn't describe it, but I knew I was feeling down, but still thought I was coming down with something.
Now I AM really down. And last night I went to bed very very early, and proceeded to sleep for over 15 hours. I don't have to work until this afternoon (I'm a per diem worker in the healthcare industry) and I feel barely able to do that. I'm very tired/sleepy and feeling so down. I'm afraid that I'm going into a depressive episode.
And then today I find that my cat is ill -again. She has a tumor in her abdomen and she's been near death a couple of times before and each time, I'm afraid that this is 'it.' I feel even worse. I need to get her pain meds. I will call her vet before I go to work to send the prescription to the compounding pharmacy. I might have to wait to pick it up tomorrow because I got up too late.
Do any of you find that sleeping an enormous amount proceeds depression? That before you start feeling depressed -or fully- you sleep like this, and only start to feel the depression a couple of days afterwards? Between how down I started feeling yesterday -before my cat got sick- and today -now that she's sick again- I'm in tears. I hope I can put on a decent face for work and get the work done in an adequate way.
So does anyone get this pattern of excessive sleep and THEN depression? Or did I not realize that I was depressed in the first place, that is, when I was sleeping so much...?
I'm so scared. I just want to head this off. Already depressed, I'm afraid that my cat's illness will push me off the edge... I feel so terrible for her, for her pain, and being alone in that pain, and, selfishly, for my own loneliness if, in fact, this is 'it.' I want all of this to go away. I need the depression to lift to I can better take of her.
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Something that comes with depression is excessive empathy. from the way that you talk about your cat it seems "to me" that you are empathizing too much. I'm not saying that you shouldn't care,but don't you think you are empathizing too much. I am known by people around me to be a kind person, but I wouldn't be hurt to this level for the situation that you describe about your cat. I have dealt with depression before. I know how it feels like.
Please, talk to your psychiatrist and psychologist about it as soon as possible,There was one time that I was doing very bad and my psychiatrist somehow squeezed me in his schedule and saw me as what is almost was an " Emergency visit". and one of the other things that I learned over the 17 years that I have bipolar disorder is that it is a good idea that your therapist and psychiatrist be in contact with each other, and tell everything to them. And of course your excessive sleep and lack of enthusiasm to work is a sign of depression.