Hi everyone and thanks you for posting. As to why I'm so afraid I guess it's several reasons.....
-Fear of the unknown
-Coming to terms with my "real self"
-Voicing my pain...there is something different about having your thoughts(painful ones)...feelings....inside rather then hearing them....it's as hearing them makes them come to life....hiding them inside makes me "not have to feel them" as much.
-Wondering if therapy could acually help anyways.

So, I've here first trying this out....I will try slowing....talking out my feelings. Perhaps I should blog.....has that helped anyone?