Hello all. Long time. Hope all is well

I have been doing fantastic. Greater than great. High functioning and on top.
However the last few days things are changing. I feel like I'm heading upwards. Like the episode is a coming kind of upwards. I'm irrational, I'm snapping, self esteem is sky rocketed. Having thoughts like I am the best at it all! My mind is busy and my family is aggravated with me. Angry even. I'm still in control but I feel like I'm heading down the wrong street. I want to buy buy buy. Pent up energy ready to blow. Sleep decline. I don't believe this is coming back. I cant take it again. I need my job and to stay out of hospital. I don't know. I don't know. just venting. I don't know