I live in total insecure state of fight or flight. WTH? I need to get off this crazy ride!

Instead of just accepting my h is dull and has no 'throw down', I let it trigger me to this point.

My body is constantly flooded with adrenaline.

I would like to be safe and secure somewhere, where I can just relax and stop worrying all the time.

I'm ok sleeping in the other bedroom for now. I had a nice, normal evening with my h and son last night.

Now, you wouldn't believe what I have to do because of my job. Another ridiculously stressful situation. It'll be alright. I'm quite good at it when it's other people's problems.

Thank you all for being there and your wise words! Truly, love, from me.