Thanks for the support! It helps me so much when I get input from others -- it helps me make sense of whatever it is that I am experiencing.

It absolutely feels scary and unsafe! It is so difficult to be going through this, taking care of my family, raising my 9 year old daughter, and working. I kind of wish this had waited until Summer break, but I guess I'll make it.

I'm interested in the holding multiple feelings for T at the same time. So, I went from idealizing/devaluing(sp?) T (mostly idealizing) to feeling both at the same time? The feelings are literally gut-wrenching. The emotions are still very intense, but now I'm dealing with more than one at a time. I guess it's no wonder I feel so unsettled. Is the goal to get used to feeling such intense emotions at one time or will all of the feelings lessen in intensity as I progress? Is this how people who don't have mental issues feel?