Worst of all he continually crushes my self esteem. He basically says i am ugly. Hes like oh look at that chick on the poduium shes talented AND hot. He says he will get one of my team mates to beat me up if i ever stick up for myslelf. So i say they will have fat chance if i had a gun so training is pointless uness you can learn to dodge bullitts for f @#ks sake.
He derides and downs me infront of everyone, and treats me like i am naive. I know so much more than i make on but i would rather be light hearted. He made a fool of me yesterday by sayng in front of some rich parents that if i could not afford to buy shoes from his shop i could look in discount store tk maxx.
So i got a job. I train and i study and i work. I am so tired not just literally but weary. I cant see where i am going and i cry every night. I cut my feet and stomach yesterday for some temp relief.
I always get dumped maybe i am not attractive. At least i have a brain. If that goes. Well stuff it all. I am out of here