You're being 100% honest about how you feel, but in this situation, you have to put his needs ahead of your own. He is going through a family ordeal and crisis and needs to be with his family for however long. He is not abandoning you on purpose, but he needs to do this. You're going to have to understand and have compassion for the situation and for him. Yes, your year was ruined, but these things happen in life, unfortunately, and we must deal with them the best we can. You can video Skype with him every day while he's gone so that you're not so lonely, and stay in close touch. But you have to think of his needs now.. not your own. I know it's not easy.. but you will get through it! ((((Hugs)))