I don't really know what's going on, but if someone could give me insight that be truly appreciated.

My therapist told me I've become reliant on them.
They said this after I mentioned how I panicked going to two locations and how I thought does my therapist really know what they doing?

I don't really know how myself thinking does my therapist really know what they doing relate to me being reliant to my therapist.
In fact I feel quite hurt about it because I'm going through a hard time fighting off thoughts of sucidie, so I feel they don't take that into account.

Anyway the last session I had with him has changed from twice a week therapy to once a week. I knew this was going to happen a month a head. It changed to once a week once the DBT group had started. Though I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it even though I knew month a head. My therapist told me do I feel abandoned? I responded with a yes. Since I mentioned the therapy go to once a week and how he ended session as well. He goes all quite and say time is up, I felt really dismissed as if it's a cut of an power in the house and you like "huh? What the?" I told them this how I feel dismisssed and they went on about how I feel abanonded but how they don't want to go over time because then there client is waiting. I'm thinking well instead of rushing and making me feel panic and you coming across as seta done on to other client, why not give yourself 10 minutes or 15 minutes in between clients for yourself. I didn't say that but I feel like too. At the end he told me we really need to get this abandonment out of your head, I be here next week. So they suggested to like a scarf and he holds it and I hold it and I pull it during thearpy session whenever I feel I don't alone?

I don't know if what they doing is red flag in therapy or it's unprofessional? Or what.