Please forgive me for my honesty

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I don't recall any one of my PUs ONCE saying "I'm proud of you" apart from the paternal unit saying it in his wedding speech (it was his wedding right, not mine...mmmmm he was a Narcissist)

Maybe if I had been the "terrible" person the step maternal unit and a few other apparently perceived me as I would have received some decent therapy

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Although my all knowing PUs (parental units) believed I "should" be punished by isolation from the whole "family" (amongst other things). They were Narcissists and Sociopaths

But I'm so "weak" and a "failure" ... I know it and surely "should" be "ashamed"

Please forgive my honest anger.

Is suicide "better"?

I've tried to obtain "treatment" on the NHS many times but I don't fit neatly into the criteria and I don't trust them at all it's literally impossible now for me to open up at all. I have good reason not to trust them

No disrespect to anyone here