I am sorry she has put you through so much. I remember in another posting where her spending habits have also been very disappointing.

It is hard to stop helping the people we love even when they disrespect the money and effort we invest in them. Sometimes we beat ourselves up even when we put more effort into the relationship than they have.

Perhaps since you took this first step, perhaps you will be able to leave sooner. I assume you are sad because you know her well enough to know she will not turn around. No expectations or pressure from me though. I am in a permanent state of confusion. I am sorry you are sad but if you can eventually reach clarity on what to do and take action then things may get better for you. I hope so.