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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967
I'm trying so hard to get better and be better and I feel useless, unwanted, a burden and a failure. I got a card in the mail today from one of my friends and it was about how I could be running my illness so much better. I feel defeated and like a total loser. I just don't and can't fight this anymore. There are other things going on but that just did it. I'm tired of having SI as my constant companion. I'm just over this.
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Jennifer, suicidal ideation has become a default setting in my brain, a coping mechanism when I feel overwhelmed with feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, and self blame. It is a huge burden we struggle to carry each day, and for people who can't relate with this, it becomes something to judge. Please, please, please remember that carrying this burden makes us more empathetic and compassionate towards others. The world NEEDS people like us, like you.