Reflecting on times that were extremely dreadful and realising that it's either going down that bleak miserable path again, ruining all the progress and everything else or continue striving to get better. It's definitely not going to be a smooth road, not for me, not for anyone who's going through something so I'm told to just keep pushing myself. Motivation can be a tricky thing for many of us even when faced with the best opportunities or the most qualified therapist. It's strange!

What's important is maintaining a healthy optimistic attitude that you WILL get better and learn from your darkest moments, noticing that you overcame that obstacle.

I really, really, really hope things get better and the road softens for you