WOW! You gals are great! Who needs therapy :-)

Sunrise, I think I definitely want to end therapy face-to-face not by just not showing up anymore. Hopefully, I'll be brave enough to actually do it that way. As for getting the biggest bang for my buck.. Absolutely, I am also the type of person who does not like to waste my time. That's why internally I am pressuring myself to decide to either stay and ENGAGE or quit and be done with it.

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Has your reason for seeking therapy changed recently?

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I think so! Basically the crisis that brought me to therapy to begin with has been brought to a tolerable point. Now I am wanting to move towards a life that is more than just existing. If I continue I may become the sole focus and benefactor, not my kids or my marriage. I really have trouble doing something strictly for myself. I know its dumb but I feel guilty for some reason.

Sister, Thanks for you affirmation that we are entitled to happiness. I say the same to the others; but back off when pursuing it for myself.

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“i'll be able to interact as a healthy person as well and not one of the unhealthy ones they need to avoid.”

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Have you asked yourself if you are actually afraid of happiness?

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YES, I am afraid of failure and that I will not like what I discover. I’ve already discovered guilt and those feelings are not all that great. Denying what I want is easier than acknowledging it and then having to act on that knowledge.

Tulips, thanks for sharing that you fear dependency also. I'm really afraid that if I take that risk and lay it all out there, I'll become attached to this therapeutic relationship and start to rely on it. This scares me the most. Maybe this whole exercise is rationality comes down to one core irrational fear.