i am really tired of trying... i have no clue where the urges are coming from this morning... i can't begin to figure out the trigger... i woke up triggered... and if i call my t... like he wants me to... i will have to talk...grrrrr... and don't have a clue of what to tell him... if i c*t ... i will feel better for awhile... and right now awhile sounds really good... i guess i need to make a phone call