Quote:
Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967
I'm trying so hard to get better and be better and I feel useless, unwanted, a burden and a failure. I got a card in the mail today from one of my friends and it was about how I could be running my illness so much better. I feel defeated and like a total loser. I just don't and can't fight this anymore. There are other things going on but that just did it. I'm tired of having SI as my constant companion. I'm just over this.
|
Hi, Jennifer
Please realise you're not a loser nor are you unwanted, a burden, useless. Perhaps your friend came from a warm caring place or supportive concern?? You're not at all defeated, having been trying as hard as you have been to get better - this shows immense courage and strength on your part! I said to someone earlier that we all need to keep pushing and pushing as difficult as it seems and as easy as it sounds; it isn't at all easy. We'll all slip and have our off days, feeling like there's absolutely no hope and then experience great heights. You're not alone on this unique path
I believe you can surpass this difficult time
dedicate time to any hobbies or interests which bring you joy. Listen to nice music. Hopefully this will serve as a distraction and things for you will eventually get better