Ok. So as nobody else has said this..

(I feel somewhat ignored, clearly I don't express myself well...)

Fuzzybear, you are courageous and strong. You're a fighter and have not given in to the Beast of Depression and all the other things you "cope" with.

You've survived abuse at the hands of "doctors" and just because you don't list all your perceived "failings" it doesn't mean your pain isn't valid.

It takes strength to fight constant SI without "medication" ........ or with medication for that matter.

Respectful regards!

PS I encourage others reading this to try writing yourself a supportive message, it might help counter some of the poison of Depression.

Thanks,
Fuzzybear