Please allow me to whine. I have zero money in the bank at the end of every month and cannot afford what I need. I know there are others here in the same place but this started to happen recently for the first time in my life. I ended up with a DUI even though I took the medication as prescribed after a recent increase in the dosage. I kept blanking out on and off for a long period of time such as before I drove my car and found myself parked at a store. I remember everything when I was conscious. One of the times I blanked out I walked to a store with a neighbor and purchased hotdog. I was talking normally without slurring my speach. I just seemed a bit distracted. I have ever experienced this before. I cannot drive to the grocery store or my doctor appointments. I lost 40 lbs in two weeks over this. My daughter ran away and when caught by the police her mother moved her completely out of my place. I was shocked and terribly sad over this. It feels like that I have lost my daughter. Then there is the passing of my mother a couple months ago. This all happened recently. There is more but I will stop my whining. It is just that my hospital visit was just too much for me. I started yelling at the nurse and began to lose control.

I thought of deleting this post due to all the whining. I am sorry but I needed to get all of this out. I am overwhelmed and have been really paranoid about my situation. It can get worse. Little things can begin to send me over the edge. What will happen next? I am needing to share.