I don't even know if that's the right word for it [emoji28]
Just right now , I've been pretty stable with my moods , haven't been self harming a lot (apart from bruising yesterday) , I'm back to eating normally , and I don't feel depressed like I usually am. And all of this is a coming and going thing.
I feel fake. That these 4 and a half years have just been faked. That I've been doing it for attention.
Every time I come to a point where I seem "okay" and "stable" I think this stuff.
I just feel fake...
Maybe I've gotten too sick at this point...
Just kind of wanted to vent..